Wow, every year I’m surprised by how long winter feels. This was no exception. The last few weeks have been great and I think it is a combination of seeing the sunshine more lately and starting to practice yoga more consistently. Slowing down is such a need for me. The more I take the time to just be, I realize it is a necessity… No, not that I need to go to a yoga studio necessity but a time to clear my mind and focus on things that matter. Last year was my year of ‘NO’. I had a break from photography jobs. I only did what was necessary and what I really wanted for my family. It was SOOOO fantastic. I can’t even emphasize it enough. This year, I took on a few positions volunteering. I also committed to working through wedding season. So I got it in my head that this year I was going to say ‘Yes’ whenever I could and see how that felt. Carpe Diem! I only live once so let’s do all we can!
…… You know what happened?! Saying ‘Yes’ means you get asked a lot more…. means your time gets spoken for if you aren’t careful. I found myself considering things I NEVER would consider just to not hurt someone’s feelings and thinking, ‘Well, maybe I would like it….” It is only March and I’m feeling burnt out and was frustrated by feeling like I was living through motions but not really there. I talk to these parents that live this way all the time and I just don’t get it. Why? Why live in this fast paced, do all I can with every second of my life planned out? I’ve come to the decision that my previous year of ‘No’ was much more suitable for me. I felt present in my life and for my kids. I thought maybe I was missing something because it seemed like I was the only one not complaining… ha ha. Funny thought, but yes, I thought that. Like maybe I need to be doing more too because my kids are only in one sport at a time and I eat dinner at home. The good things about minds is that they can be changed. This year of ‘Yes’ lasted 2 months and I have to say I’m quitting! I’m a quitter of doing this insane dance while juggling and smiling and doing flips with coffee in my hand.
Happy Spring. A time for renewal. I just have to say that if you are in a mode of YES and feeling overwhelmed or not even overwhelmed but just not present…. Do yourself a favor and say NO sometimes. Just be. I promise you will feel better and renewed. We don’t do this enough because the status quo is to be busy. Never enough time. Well, you only live once and I say you should be there for it.